strange sense of closure

today as i was searching for our passports, i sifted and sorted through papers i have been hauling with me, from year to year, as i move around. being forced to go through the papers was interesting-i found things i had written in college, old letters, pics of old girlfriends, the text of the civil union (as well as a host of paycheck stubs dating from the 90's...wheee).

as i looked at all of the reminders of past relationships, i didn't feel any pang of regret or nostalgia-i felt absolutely nothing. no anger, no sadness, no regret. it was a bit like looking at artifacts from someone else's life-like a museum exhibit.

maybe it's because of the wedding (less than two weeks away), maybe it's because Suz and i have been together for four years, maybe it's because i am happier than i have ever been.

so nice not to have longing or regret or anger for something long in the past....